-5 weeks later-

We havent spoke not even ONCE! I think the ice test did work, because now he is telling my friends that he doesnt speak to me because im always with hes friends and like kind of it bothers him, HES JELOUS! haha, thats what i wanted. but today i will speak to him on the msn:

SB = SEXYBIATCH (me)

FC = FREIcan (him)

SB:  hey, its been long time, since we last spoke are mad at me or something                                                

FC: no way! i know, im like kind of busy lately

SB: ...

FC: can i call you?

SB: now?

FC: yeah

SB: why?

FC: dunno, just wanna talk to you

SB: ok

--------------------------------- the phone call was nothing special, we talked about school , and that we needed to talk to each other

<on the next day>

him: hey!

me: uh?

him: over here silly!

me: oh hi, how are you?

him: well, would you like to sit with me at lunch time?

is he flirting me? i cant believe it, im defenetly going to say no, but on the other hand, his hair looks really sexy today

me: ok fine

28/9

Its been a week since school started.  Summer is over. Shit is all around. Why doesnt he even look at me? Is it my new haircut? Maybe, i dont know. We exange sights, but we dont even talk to each other!  I mean, were suposed to be together, so whats going on?; these past days we´ve been ignoring each other. I think he should talk to me first! Its not fair, every since we´ve started this relationship its been me whos fixing everything, fights, missunderstood, jealousy etc. Its starting to be anoying, Claire says i should give him some time, what for? its the same now or tomorrow.

WAIT

Now i see, his mother died last year, perhaps hes upset remembering her, well rewinding, he wasnt at the funeral. I NEW THIS RELATIONSHIP WOULD SUCK AND BE HARD. Or not, perhaps its just me the one who sucks,or what if he met someone and hes collecting courage to break up with me?

THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I want to break up with him, althow i still love him, but if he wants to give it an end, hes not the one who will end up as a winner and me as a looser. Good tomorrow i WILL TELL HIM EVERYTHING!

29/9

Today i talked on the phone with Claire, she says im acting wierd, that im not the same person in school as in the phone. I dont see the difference. She says that when speaking with her im very sentimental and romantic while at school i dont give a shit about love and do as im not with someone. Perhaps shes right, but there is no time, i need to talk to him.

At school

8:00 am

The bell rang-i need to go to class, great! ive got health class, the only class i am with him, but that doesnt mean i AM going to talk to him, he seats 6 rows behind me, if i turn around he will notice i am staring at him, so hell have to make the first move. But, what if he doesnt spots me? we´ll see.

Health class sucks. We started with sexual relationship and taught us how to take care of ourselves, we had to choose a partner, silly i am, i waited till HIM came and ask and denied to everyone, even Jake Morrison came to ask me, the hotest guy in all our high school. Until HE picked Susy, one of my best friends! i was so mad at both of them, specially to her! how can she do this to me knowing we still didnt break up! well maybe he did, and i didnt realize. oh no! im still thinking we are together when we arent. i NEED to find out.  Finally my partner ended up being Erik, my best friend since.... ever.

9:00 am-BREAK

i need to now! Erik has been friend of him since i dont now, a long time, so i guess at gym he could ask him, i didnt realise until now, but lately i´ve all by myself thinking and planing ALONE. with no friend to console me or give me an advice, i usualy hate to be alone, i cant stand it! maybe claire is right i have changed, for good? or for bad?

9:15am-GYM

Today i decided not to do gym, for the best of the team, i really suck at gym, althow i have to admit, i can eat a cow and still weight 45kg. measuring 1:65 m

10:15 am-Break

So i´ve asked erik what did he say, "so? did he tell you something?" i asked, "well yeah, he says youre still together, that he never broke up with you" he said weakly.